My Spiritual Journey leading to Sahaja Yoga Meditation
“Last Wednesday we were talking about this seeking of truth within us and our connection with divine and this whole being and my yogini friend Paula (we are both going to free meditation meetings in Halton) had asked me to write down my experience and journey of seeking this knowledge. Just briefly I tell you about my childhood that from my early age I’ve been searching the answers of the questions which come in my mind that who we are and whats the main purpose of this life .`
I had a Dream with the Prophet when I was 11 years old ..I had a dream when i was 11 years old that Prophet Muhammad was sitting on mat on floor and some students were sitting around him to learn and i was there too and he gave me some water to drink. I told my parents and they ask about this to a scholar who interprets dreams and he said that it means this girl going to get very pure knowledge and wisdom.Life goes on and in my heart there is a desire all the time to find the ultimate truth however going to all the places and mosques and other Islamic classes I couldn’t satisfy myself, because my seeking is about “Kundalini” which I know now. Anyways, many things happen in life and generally I was a person who never complained so much about life’s ups & downs and I felt my-self as a leaf flowing on a water where the flow take it I go and I was surrender my self to divine.Four- five years back suddenly something happen which i don’t know what it was because it was not me. I started complaining about life and i was totally not happy with what I had and felt un-satisfied in me. Can you believe that it happened when I have everything which i wish for and instead of being thankful I became unhappy and cranky person and started feeling that I want this and I want that, not ending state of having everything perfect. Three years before, I was talking to my best friend who knew me more than 15 years, and knew that I was not that type of un-satisfied person. While talking to her I told her that I found that I took a wrong exit of my journey of life and know that I am completely lost. But in my heart was a strong belief that God will guide me the right way and show me the light.
I had a Dream Again .. in CanadaThen we moved to Mississauga and after moving in this house .. I had a dream again which was so nice and my heart filled with blessings and light… I dreamt that
I dreamt that I was with my family somewhere near a beautiful lake and many people were going in the cottage which was having some sort of party and my family also went in. I was alone and suddenly I saw a big bright full moon shining on the lake and it was so bright and super big that my eyes cannot take the light and all the light made the lake’s water like it was sliver and sparkling and I can’t explain how my heart filled with joy and and happiness. Suddenly I surrendered and bowed to the divine power.I asked my uncle’s friend who is a great scholar in Montreal about this dream and he said soon you will get a pure knowledge. I couldn’t forget this dream and then got busy in life.
My Self-Realization & My Sahaj Family
In March 2010 when I found out about Sahaj Yoga classes that were starting very close, just five minutes to my house, I start feeling that something special is coming for me and I was so excited and the first day Ioana told us about this Kundalini awakening and about this spontaneous union with divine. I felt that my search is over and I got my right exit and slowly and gradually I will get the ultimate truth of “Nir Anand” which Shri Mataji said that it is a complete state of Thoughtless Awareness.
Can you believe that the first day I got my realization I was feeling that my whole body was filled with joy which I can’t explain and I was so awake that day till late night and was laughing and happy like a small kid.
Otherwise, I became so serious and cranky person. One more thing I like to share that i was a good cook before going to the wrong exit of my life and then i lost my cooking passion and love with other blessings as well.But while doing this lovely “Sahaja Yoga” i got my blessings back and the joy, peace and content-ness within me. I also I got a very loving Sahaj family which I’m always eager and excited to meet them.During the sahaj guru game I feel so much connection with Paula’s mom who was in our Vishuddhi team. Actually in Halton family she is known as a wonderful Gruha Lakshmi (having the nourishing and caring powers of the left Nabhi chakra :-). About the beautiful sahaj family we have, I can say that all the time I met you guys my heart is filled with more compassion and love which cannot be able to explain in words. It only feels like an Ocean of Compassion.Love to all of you: my Sahaj Family. Yours, AyeshaThe photo above captures a sahaj event in GTA: `Shivaratri festival` 2011, when many ladies from our Halton sahaja yoga meditation have decided to try and wear a Sari. As you can see, they are radiant! That evening was so special, because we also have celebrated the bday of Shri Mataji – founder of sahaja yoga and we had our Aarti – Halton Music group perform for the very 1st time. About Ayesha’s story that you had just read it above, our Thanks go to Paula who wanted to make Ioana a surprise (yes, she did!!) by collecting more testimonials on meditation experiences from Halton classes for our website. Did it make a difference? Let us know, drop a comment and why not, read 2 more articles. 🙂